Russian Roulette skiing

Skiing is something that has pushed me to my absolute limit of things being possible. I mean it scares the shit out of me with the things that people are coming up with these days. I mean i can do all my dub flips and corks and rail and box tricks, but i think its nuts that we as skiers keep trying to do things bigger. every time im at the top of an in run to a jump looking down at this massive wall of snow i gotta hit do a trick and land on the other side without getting caught on the lip, throwing the trick to hard to the point where my ski falls of, and then im in the air upside down with no ski on and then you pray to what ever god you believe in and hope you land close to being on your feet so you dont shatter your leg or tear something you know how it goes. I mean you got more shit to worry about just because of the fact you take the jump switch or backwards and that makes shit even more scary. I mean you gotta control your speed still and you have to gauge the distance of how far you gotta go. So you have to make sure that your going fast enough to make the gap of the damn jump. because if you dont have enough speed you hit the knuckle of the jump ( the part the rolls over from the start of the landing into the landing dont know if that makes sense but hey i tried) and you blow your knees out and crush your legs and or compress your spine i duno just think about jumping off of a 35-40 ft building and landing on flat ground and bouncing. Yea so anything can happen and thats when you land on your feet. No think about being upside down and not being able to get the trick all the way around yupp FUCKING HURTS! Now think about going to fast and over shooting the jump and so now you get to think about how high you are in the air and you are coming down towards the ground, but the landing is rapidly vanishing from under you. So if you were drawing this out on paper you can see that instead of falling maybe about 35-40 ft its about i duno lets say double that. sometimes its not that much but it makes the distance further to fall. so that sucks. Even though we speed check jumps to try and dial in the speed we need so we know were to start and how many speed checks we need to take things can always go wrong. Looking down that in run every time still gets my heart rate going. even though it something i do all the time its like riding a bike, i still have messed up and crashed real hard. Your taking your life into your hand every time you drop in. Well yes the extreme is your life but really hurting yourself is always a 50 percent chance. take it from me over 28 major broken bones, 2 broken backs, 2 broken necks, blew both my knees, broken bot my arms, need shoulder replacements in 2 years, broken both my ankles, tore my acl and mcl, etc you get the point. well not all this happened at one time. lol but it sucked. If you think skiing is a pussy sport you need to get your shit checked! i wanna see you flying through the air flipping and having to land on your feet.