Saturday, April 30, 2011

Im always going to love you

I always am going to look to you for help and always going to look up to you. I need to have you in my heart and by my side to be happy and to keep going. No one can ever show me how to love someone or be loved like you have. I cant ever lose site on that or i will lose myself. I dont want you to ever hear that you are giving up on your self. That means your giving up on me and giving up on the love we have. I need to know that you always have me no matter where you are in the world. You make me so happy. When you called me lastnight and i missed your call i started beating my self up. i was so mad when i woke up and my phone had died and i plugged it in and had a missed call and a message on facebook. I jumped out of bed ran downstairs and turned on my computer so fast. I was so upset that i missed your call i started crying. I listend to your message 3 or 4 times just to hear  your voice or try to make out what you were saying. It was all broken uo and i couldnt hear very much of anything. i thought i hear you say something but i wasnt quite sure so by the last time i listend i heard you say i hope we can talk soon and that you love me and miss me. that made my heart start beating so fast and that i can still talk to you. Just something like that makes me happy to hear. No matter what you do in life im always going to be there to support you and pick you up when you fall if you need help. to support you in every way when any challenge comes before you. I just hope that you never give up on all the good things in life that lay ahead of you. you showed me how no matter how bad htings get we all have something to go for in life something good. It dosnt have to be very big either. Just being a part of someones life is and can be a huge thing for someone. You just being in my life is something that no one else can match. Your my true love and if that is the most important thing i could ever ask for. So dont think that you havent acomplished anything in your life because you have. You have done so much and there is so much more for you. Im going to never break my promise to you and never give up on you. Dont you ever think your stupid and usless because that means that iam too. You dont have to say your sorry at all. The only thing that i have dealt with is the love you have for me and how you will love me for who iam. That alone means the world to me. There is a reason you are here and it is to help others and show them that they can be loved and do things! I love you with all my heart and i want you to know that i will love you till i cant love you anymore and that will never happen. I will always have you on my mind and if i dont then i dont have anything. I hope i can hear your voice soon and that i can have the love of my life be with me.

I love you allison <3

Friday, April 29, 2011

No matter who you are

No matter who you are, where you live, how much money you have, the car you drive, the things you may own, the person you are. All that matters is that your with me and we can trust eachother and always tell the truth to eachother. I never want to lie to you i never want to be someone you can trust. I love you so much that if i lied or you couldnt trust me would break my heart. I hope that no matter where life takes you now and in the future that you will always be the same, and people can trust you and follow you. I just wish some day soon I can tell you what else i wanted to say that i thought was really important. I just want you to know some more about me. I want to keep learning with you. I dont know when we will be able to talk and i can hear your voice again. I hope that if there is anything you want to tell me you can and you know i wont judge you. Your the only person i can trust and you wont judge me that means so much to me. If there is anything or anyone you ever need to talk to you know im here. Im here to listen and help when ever you need someone. If there is anything you need you know im here to do everything i can. You know i will drop anything iam doing and come help you or listen to you. I want you to know that you can tell me anything. I want you to know that if there is something else you want or need to tell me its ok. You know i dont get mad, because being mad dosnt help anything. it only makes people more frustrated. So dont think that i will hate you or be mad i will only have a smile on my face since i get to hear your voice. I love you so much. when you love someone you dont get mad at them and you try and understand what there problems are and listen. You tell them the truth and trust them with all your heart. I miss you so much.  I woke up lastnight thinking about you and just things that made me smile thinking you were here with me. I think the dogs know there is something wrong. even they cant keep me from being lonely. they know mommy is gone and is making me really sad. I hope on your travels your never alone and there is always someone there to make you smile. to make you laugh and show you the world isnt a bad place. that there are other people out there that dont put you down because your a girl. You always know that im with you everyday and everynight in your heart. praying for you and looking out for you. 


I love you Ali <3

I'll be right here with you.

When you feel your heart's guarded
And you see the break's started
When the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

B rock, uh, Darkchild
We back
You'll be right here with me

(Oh, oh, oh)
You'll be right here with me

When your life is going too fast
Off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh

Just when you think your bout to turn back
'Stead you might crash
I'll be your ground, oh

Oh when you feel your heart's guarded
And you see the break's started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the world has turned silent
And when the clouds have all Departed
You will be right here with me.

(Oh oh oh)
I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me
I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me

When your trapped and there's just no key
And you can't breathe
I breathe for you

The fire's got you down on both knees
And the walls are closing in
But I will break it through

And when you feel alone
I'm a be your home
Whenevers comes and go
You know I got you

Oh when you feel your heart's guarded
And when you see the break's started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

(You'll see the sun)
And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the worlds turned silent
So when the clouds have all departed
You will be right here with me

I will be here right beside you
Every step you take, yea
I will be your strength, your shelter
Shield you from the rain

(Oh when you feel)
Oh when you feel your heart's guarded
And when you see the break's started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the worlds turned silent
So when the clouds have all departed
You will be right here with me

Oh when you feel your heart's guarded
And when you see the break's started
And when the clouds have all departed
You'll be right here with me

And when your tears are dry from crying
And when the worlds turned silent
So when the clouds have all departed
You will be right here with me

I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me
I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me

I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me
I will be right here with you
You'll be right here with me, yea

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Smiled thinking about you today

I was sitting in the library today and there was this girl talking to someone on the phone. Thinking it was a bf or something. She was laughing saying how its wierd not talking to that person if it was more then four hours or like a day and how they both would think something is wrong. It made me smile. Just made me think of how we are and how that it was always so wierd if we didnt talk for like an hour or didnt even get to talk at all. Not being able ot hear eachothers voices. It just made me think of how long its been since i heard your voice. I miss the laughter and funny things we used to talk about on the phone and staying up late into the early hours of the morning. Talking non stop watching youtube videos of the funniest stuff. Eating at the same time late at night. I miss everything about you. I still think it is weird not going to sleep to the sound of your voice in my ear. telling you that you love me and to sleep well. I still find it hard sitting there not wanting to close my eyes because you havent called yet that night. I start to think about al the times we did talk on the phone and the jokes we made just to smile for a sec. remebering the way you sound in my head. Thinking about when you said you love me. thinking about these words you wrote.

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I love you Allison <3

my heart is beating with yours

I couldnt hold the tears in today or the emotions. I had to let them out sitting alone on the floor agiasnt my couch. getting that feeling that i wont ever get to talk to her again or see her face. Trying to stay strong for her and what she always told me to do. those are the words i cherish and hold the most. The only person who has ever made me a better person and go after the things we love. Still waiting for the sound of her voice to be in my ears. to make me smile and laugh like she always makes me do. The one person who only looks down on me when i get knocked down just to help me back on my feet. the words you wrote to me in your blog i read over and over. Our heartbeat as one and it reminds me of that song that you love so much. Nneka Heartbeat. I listend to that song so many times. I said i would be there for you in times of need and i still am. I can feel your heartbeating with mine every day.

I hope you can feel my heartbeating with yours too when ever you think about me. I meant every word i ever say about how much i love you. I will never take those words back. I hope that you will always know that. Im going to fight till my last breath and when my heart gives out. If that day comes know that my heart is still beting with yours. That im still alive with you. But until that day comes im fighting and pushing on listening to everything you said to me. Being that person you taught me to be. fighting for love for the person you never want to lose.

I love you Ali. <3

the road is long but its short with you

Some day you will sing it out loud and you will be proud. We all dont know how the story ends but i wanna be a part of your story. I cant keep going on thinking that i might not be.

I Know that everyone is always on your mind and you are always thinking of what you want to get away from. I do too. I wanna get away from all the people who are bringing me down and i wanna take back the times where i could have been there in someones life to help. I wanna take back the times when it was the last thing i said to them. Or if i could have said something else or something more. Its always in my head. I cant but i wish i could have and always will. Im not gonna let that happen again though. Im not going to lose someone who is so important to me. Im not going to regret it this time because i have the chance to do something. I have the chance to say that im going to stand by your side and be there. Im going to at least be able to try and fight for something that i know i can. Im not letting another chance get away from me and letting another person i love so much just disapear out of my life with two words. I know i cant make you change your mind and change what your doing but i can say what i feel. I can tell you that I love you and the memories that are stuck in my head will mean so much to me and will be there forever. I can tell you i miss you and how i wish we were together as you make your journey. Not saying that we arnt together at heart but to be able to really have the chance to come with you and make you smile. I dont want to regret not being able to talk to you one last time and did i say everything i wanted to. Is there something that i said  to make you feel this way. I want your story to bring you to where you think is a good place and for people you find on your journey to make you happy. I want to know that you are the person in this world who can make a diffrence. You made a difference in my life and will keep making it a better place knowing that your out there. my life journey isnt over yet and i cant do this alone. Every sec i think of the time we have had together and the ups and downs. Nothing i regret nothing i will forget. My heart races everytime i see something that reminds me of you and it is every where i look. If someone can do that to you then you know its real and you know there is something to hold on to and not let go. If they are always on your mind. I cant regret not being able to say i love you one more time. Dont ever think that i will be mad and not ever want to talk to you again. I want that so bad. I want to be able to hear your voice and see you. Just because you are gone and you think someone is mad at you they are not. If they truly love you. I wait by my phone to be able to hear the ring and pick it up and just say baby i miss you and love you. I wait for the moment you come back home and i can kiss and hug you. I wait for the moment that your just thinking of me for a sec. Im waiting and you told me to chase my dreams and go after them. Your that dream and i will never lose site on that and lose hope. Your the only perosn who has gone the distance and shown me that there is someone out there that is your true love and it is you. Never to be forgoten and never to give up. I hope that your dreaming of me and you know im dreaming of you every time i close my eyes. That i would do anything and i would work till i colapse and still get back up just so i know maybe im making you smile.

I love you Allison.

one last wish

Last night was one of the worst. I woke up sweating about every hour. Thinking about you or if i had some how missed the chance to talk to you. I fear that the most. What if i miss the last time she calls. the last time i get to hear her voice. The last time i get to even say anything to her. With my computer by my side with my skype and chat always up so you can call me no matter where you are. ITs getting to me that everyone keeps asking me where you have gone but i dont know what to say or do i wish that i could say something but fear that it will make you mad or dont know where you really are. i dont ever want to upset you and mad you mad. I just cant deal with that. i want you to be happy and find the light in the world you have been searching for. Iv been trying to keep my mind off it but i just cant. i know how much you just want to be alone and with no one. I just wish you would at least call me one more time and let me say what i wanna say and then i will be at peace a little more. I dont know where you are at this point if your even in MN still or if you have jumped on a plane and gone across the ocean thousands of miles. I wish that i was near so i could at least give you a hug and a kiss. For what ever reason you are going to where you are i hope its for a good reason and maybe one day you can tell me why you left to go there. Or what happened to make you need to leave. I was right here for you, even when you gone iam still right  here for you and always will be. i hope that you never forget me and how much i love you. I wish your travels to be safe and that the destination your heading will in some way bring you peace and happieness. That some day you may come home and tell us the story of where you went and your journey you had. That you can one day find me again even though i will never be far from your heart. Im never going to let anyone else take that from you. Remember the promise i made to you i will not break. I keep praying that you will call me one last time before you leave on your journey. I dont know if that will happen. You can never give up on love. Just thinking that you will makes me feel a little better. I hope that you do. I love you allison

Love alex. aka your shangy bangy

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Take the time to think

I will always remeber this pic you made for us. <3
something that i always think about it what would your grandpa think about what is going on, and what did he want to see you doing with life. He wanted to see you happy and nothing bring you down. He wantd to see you move on and become a person that did let anything stop you from your dreams. He still is watching  over you and wanting all that for you. Im not sure what your doing right now ali but where ever you are i wnt you to know both him and i want the same thing for you. To be that strong person we see in you and to not do anything to change that. I know sometimes you do things and you dont even know why but stop and think if thats what your grandpa wanted to see you doing and how would it make him feel if he knew you were doing it. I mean he still does know since he is with you everyday. I know drugs and drinking are not you, but if your doing those things what would he think. It just isnt who you are. I mean to some people its the chance to get away from things by doing those things but you know he never wanted that for you. Remember all the times he was with you and what he taught you. Dont lose site on that. The times when he went to your track meets because he belived in you. Thats what he wants from you ali. Is to be someone who is strong. I know you may get mad if you read this but its not meant to make you mad. We only want to see the best for you and i know your grandpa would want that too. You always would tell me how much he cared about you, and all those stories touched my heart and made me grow closer to you and him. I know you have alot of time to think about stuff. I know that the friends you and i have lost in the past have brought us down too. They want the same thing. They dont want to see you do anything bad and want you to live a full happy life. I know you have a big heart and you want to still show your grandpa what you can do. If you know your doing something that would make him sad then dont do it. Keep your head up and do what you know is right. I know that you have it in you. Your stronger then me. I just wish that there is some way that i could talk to you and let you know how much i care and will always be there to support you no matter how much trouble you get into or where ever you may end up. Im still here for you waiting just for one more phone call. Dont give up on the ones that care and love you. I know you think that you get into your dark places alot but you know that you can get out of them. i know you can iv seen it. Just dont do anything that is going to change the cousre of your life that is going to end up bad in the long run. i hope your not doing drugs or drinking alot. i mean if you are no one can stop you. The only way something can stop you is if you take a min to think about what would your grandpa want and how would it make him feel watching you from above. im not trying to make you mad by writing any of this but im trying to think about what would he want for you. i always think to my self there is a reason why i came into your life at the time i did. I think i know why. I hope i know why. Im here for you always waiting never breaking my promise to you or your grandpa. take care of yourself like you always have and do things that are going to bring good into your life. Its a hard time for me also no knowing what derection im heading with out you. The only thing that is keeping me going is that i have a part of you with me where ever i may be in life, and that hope that you will call me. Im never mad at the things you do or say to me when you get upset. Because there is no reason to be when your heart is with someone. My phone is always on and i always have it. I found something you lost in sweden it took me a long time to find but i did. It also took a long time on the phone and alot of help from people. I told them how important it was that you have it and how much it meant not only to you but me too. im having it mailed back home. I hope that this necklace with the A&A on it will make you happy and i can give it to you some how. They said it too them 3 weeks after the snow was gone and when the snow was still there, 60 people looking for it, and alot of money well spent., and they had to clean it. I love you allison. Always and forever. <3




Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Makes me think of you.

There are those songs that make you always think about the loved one you wish you had or have. Here is a list a very short list of those songs that make me sit and wish that person would listen to. Just so you know how much you care about them.

Miss you with all my heart and soul. i will always be here waiting for that day you want to come home and still be with me in my arms. I will wait forever no matter how many days weeks months or years. Just to have that moment of you being with me in my arms. to always be there when your down. To always listen to what you have to say. To support you in every single way. Im here for you and will never let you down.


I will always be there for you never to forget the promise we made.

For me im not going to ever let anyone have my heart like i gave it to you. No one will i ever love as much as you. I just hope the very best for you no matter what and that you can see that the clouds will always uncover the sun. Go twoards the good and guid your self into sucsess. No one can stop you and the things you want to do. Your heart will show you what is right. Your going to be with those you love awlays. They are watching out for you and helping you on your journey. Im with them always in your heart never to be forgoten. I wont ever forget what you have showed me and the things you can do in this world if you really want something. You were right about love though. It was me and you and still will be forever in my heart. I will never break that promise i made to you. I will always look towards the stars and the moon every night hoping that maybe for one sec that your looking at them at the same time. I will never be to far from you because you have a peice of me where ever you may go. dont gove up hope and dont stop wishing. You have so much to show the world and never stop at just that. Keep going and finding new people and new things. Dont look back to much but always foward. Keep your head held high and know there are people who support you. The words you told me will always be on my mind no matter where iam in life. I will never forget the things you told me and to stay strong. The words of love are the most important and your the only person in this world that was and ever will be meant for me. Your the person who got me through so many rough times and all the good times. No one understood me like you did. Your always my hero. I hope that you can show otheres that too. I hope your travels bring you some place where you can put a smile on your face and be happy. I hope that in one time or another i did that for you. I will never forget how much everything you told me and said really meant something from you. From your heart. Your an amazing person. I know you dont think that all the time but you can never change my mind on that. I never have met someone who comes close to being like you and i dont think any one will come near that. Your a strong perosn at heart mind body and soul. I wish i had half of what you do. I will write every day hoping that you read. Maybe in hopes of one day seeing you or geting to hear that one voice that makes me smile. Your the reason i wake up every morning wanting to help the world and try so many things. I hope you never forget the memories we shared and had. I know i will never lose those. iv had so many dreams these past couple days of us and how connected we are. I hope that you share your love with those in need and that you dont hold it in. I know that for me there isnt going to be another you. The clouds do part and there is a sun that shines through for every person in this world. look towards the stars when you need me and i will be there. <3 I love you so much and i wont ever stop loving you. your my breezy f baby, banana, og, and most important my allison. Dont change who you are. <3 love you always and forever Alex.

bring me with you

babe i know your mind always has alot of thoughts on things all the time, and your always asking yours self if your doing the right thing. Just know that you are and no one can tell you any different. Things will always get you down and be hard no matter what though iam always going to be here for you no matter what desicions you may make. You know that i will always support you with what ever path you choose for yourself. That is what true love is and if someone really does love you they cant stop you inless you choose to. I hope you are having time to clear your mind and your not to stressed. Im always with you in your heart no matter where you are in the world or what you may choose to do. Just know you have so much ahead of you! great things you want to show this world. I know that your going to make a difference even if it is one person at a time. You have shown me so much and im greatful i even get the chance to be a part of it. IM always going to cherish what you wrote about me. Iv read it a thousand times. It makes me smile and feel so good that someone cares so much about me. I wish i had half the talent you have and the same drive. Your love means everything to me. I would give anything to protect you in time of need or be by your side when times get rough because you have been there for me every step of the way. Your never alone. I gave you my heart to protect and so you always are with someone never alone. I know if i lost you i could never replace you or even want to try. The passion you show for skiing and the love you have for helping people is something i have never seen befoe until i met you. To be able to get back on your feet and keep going is something that can not be taken away. Your the only person in the world who dosnt judge me for who iam and want to be. I hope its the sam way for you. I love who you are and hope you never change. Your my best friend in the whole world not only that the person i look up too and cherish everyday your my hero in every single way, your my support, but most important my wonderful fiancee and i couldnt ask for anything beter in the whole world. No one else can share what we have. No one can take that away and tell us we are wrong. We are connected in every way. you know that. My love for you is beyond what i thought love was. When you wrote to me saying your so blessed that you have the most amazing wonderful and caring fiancee in the world. and said i love you alex your my best friend fiancee and hero. I cant tell you how that made me feel inside. I was smiling so big and couldnt hold it in and made my eyes water from how happy i was. your the only one who can make me laugh smile and feel loved. I dont ever want that to change. So know i always love you and will never leave your side no matter what. No mater what life throws at us. Dont ever say that i dont deserve you because really i dont deserve you and how much you care about me. Im the one who is thanking you for letting me be a part of your life. I love you boo. i look back on all the memories we have made and dont regret a single one. because if you do then you know that its not love. I know that this is real and always will be. I cherish every second i have with the most amazing person in the world. Always and forever. <3 i love you ali!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Waiting for you no matter what. always in my heart always with you

Days and nights have been going by fast and slow. I think my days are getting all mixed together. No one knows where you have gone boo. I know you need your space right now away from people. Its ok. Im going to be right here waiting for you when you call and come home. I just hope that its not to long and far away from this point right now. I hope god is looking out for you and so is rocky and your grandpa and grandma. I hope they watch over you to guide you. Iv been praying every night asking them to take care of you and that you do have someone to talk to. its not the same here. not being able to hear your voice everynight to say i love you. Iv been restless not being able to eat or sleep. When i do sleep its for an hour or so and i wake up after dreaming of you and look at my phone to see if you have called or i missed a chance to talk to you. I cant live with out you babe. Your the only person i have. I will wait forever and ever. Until you come back home. I will be waiting with arms open and will still say i love you. Dont forget that i always will love you and never get mad. <3 your my everything. I will go any distance to be with you and make sure your ok. I miss you so much.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Odds Are Against you

Things are always going to be stacked against you its just the way life is. Nothing is ever handed to you. Well i mean yes sometimes for very lucky people, but in the end your the one who has to learn everything to become who you want to be. I mean you can be as rich as you want but not know shit about a 3rd world country and what they think is right. Or be really poor but striving to learn every bit of knowledge there is about everything to make a difference. I always feel as if everything is not going to go my way which they shouldnt all the time. My life deff has not been easy. The way i can get past that is just being who iam and being happy trying to enjoy the things i have been given and run with it. Not looking back because when you look back you sometimes get stuck in the past. IM not saying forget anything in the past but dont dwell so much on it that it brings you down all the time. dont ever lose those you love because they are the ones who really are there for you and sometimes they can help. I rely alot on those i love. If i didnt then where would i be. I would be lost somewhere not knowing what direction to take or which way is up or down. So give thanks today for those you love and care about you. tell them how much they have done for you to make things better in your life. We all hate consequences of not being able to do something we wish we had. Or doing something we shouldnt have done. So dont lose site one who is important in your life and you will not regret it. <3 

Easter.....

Well today on easter im pretty much spending it alone. I mean i went to my parents house to say hello to them mostly my dogs and then picked up a couple things. Things just dont feel right. You know those times when you get down and just dont want to do anything but have time to think alone and ponder on what life is. The only person i want to be with is you probably guessed it is my fiancee which no one has any idea where she went. Well i kind of have a little idea but im not to sure. If i had to guess she might have gone out to the snow somewhere and gone skiing. I just wish she would have brought me along with. Im sad she hasnt called just to say hi and let me know she is ok. her and i deal with things in the same way when something bad happens in life. We want to just stay away from the world and not have to deal with its bull shit sometimes. I dont blame here for that either because thats what i do alot. Until she came along i didnt have anyone to talk to. Now the only thing in the whole world i wanna do is be with her every second and talk to her non stop. I just hope she is somewhere safe and is having time to think. Rocky is watching over us and will always be a part of you babe. He is with your grandpa looking down on us. I want you to know that i wont be mad at you ever and always stay postive for us because you are all that i have. If i lose you i wont have anything. No matter how long you may be gone i will still be waiting. No matter the distance you want me to go to find you i will. Just Remeber and never forget how much i love you and miss you while your gone. Dont forget to call me anytime of the day i will always pick up. 


I hope you come back home soon. I love you boo. Plz call me soon. <3









Saturday, April 23, 2011

Baby boo

these past couple of days have been really hard reason being i dont know what is going on with my fiancee or what happened to rocky. Iv been thinking hard on maybe what happened but all these thoughts are just making me so sad. When you odnt know what has gone on with someone you love they are always on your mind. I just want to hear her voice and hear that she is ok. When that person is the most important person in your life you would do anything and everything to make sure they are ok. You dont want to see them fall and get hurt but to help them get back up and be strong. I know your ok baby and i hope that you call me soon. I will be waiting everyday and every night with my phone by my side. Just waiting for it to ring so i can pick it up and say i love you! Iv been up for 2 and a half days not being able to sleep, i will stay up for days weeks and months just to know your there and ok. I miss you so much i hope you call me right away. your always right here with me. <3

I love you boo.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Wanna Be With you Always

Just wanting to know how rocky is doing and trying to keep my head from thinking about to much so i dont worry. Waiting for my fiancee to call. I know she has to have her space and when something goes wrong or she loses someone or something close to her she needs her time to think. I wish i was there just so i could tell her that i love her and hold and comfort her. I know when she talks to me it helps her calm down. She needs someone to talk to to get her thoughts out. She says she is always sorry when she complians to me. I dont get annoyed by it though. Your supposed to be there to listen to there problems to help guide them. A relationship isnt anything if there arent things that you need to talk about. Times get hard and i know sometimes people dont want to talk to anyone. I get those times too. 

Boo i love you so much and i know you do know that. We have the perfect bond with one another our hearts beat as one. When your down im down when your happy i smile. I stay positive for you, and no matter the distance i would walk it. My love for you is so strong that no one could ever love someone as much as i do for you. I think about you always  every second of every day. Just to hear your voice is something special. to hear those words come out of your mouth "i love you" means more then anything could ever. My life has taken a huge turn around and it has only been for the better. Every night we talk on the phone is another memory i will never forget. It is so easy to talk to you and you are the only one who wouldnt judge me and gossip about me. your one of a kind and no one will ever have your strength or will to do things like you do. I see that everyday iam with you and it makes me a better person at heart. you have the heart of a lion and it will never stop beating. I odnt care what anyone says im in love with the most amazing person on the face of this planet. No one can take that away from me. No one could ever care for me as much as you do. No one can show me the things you have shown me. With out you in my life there is no me. know what ever happens we are together no matter the distance no matter where we are in the world. Even when we are miles apart every bit of me is yours. There are no words that can explain the feelings that i have for you. I dont think anyone could ever make me stop loving you. they can try but i will always put up a fight. We always have each other when everything else is gone and it feels as if the world is against us. We will always stand back up and keep going. I love you so much and your the only one for me. if you were not a part of my life i would be lost. 

I love you Allison <3

Dont let them Choose

Dont let em choose for you
Dont let em choose whats right for you
Another day another dime
Another state another mind
There so many lives and so many lines waitin
Theres only so much time so many die waitin
Were to caught up to not sway or wiggle from the path
And we all take chances that change us
And giving up is like latin its dead
It dont happen dont let it cross your head
But dont give up at least until i try
Or at least until i die 
Or at least until i get it all right
Or at least until its mine
Or at least until im wrong
Or at least until i got a piece to call my own
Say good bye good bye to those who hate

Dont let others tell you whats good for you. Dont let them decide what you should be doing. Listen to your heart and roll with it. (unless its something that you know is wrong moraly) Roll with the punches dont let it stop you from achieving that goal you have set for yourself. Because where would the world be if someone always said your wrong that wont work. Love yourself, love those who love you, and never for get to cherish everyday. 

My Paradise where ever she is.

My paradise isnt all the talked up mexico cancun, warm weather, palm tree shit. Im the complete oppisite. My paradise is 25 degree weather, blue bird day, surounded by white capped mountain peaks, with snow covered pine trees and a freshly groomed park with all the features you could ever imagen. Jamin out to my music, having your best friends with you getting your goggle tan on. Its not about the warm sun hanging out on the beach by the ocean with a bunch of meat head guys and stupid disty girls running around acting like they dont know what the hell they are doing. Nothing beats the mtn air and a pair of skis on your feet. Getting to travel the world skiing in places that are absolutley breath taking. coming back to your room after a long day of riding your body is sore and that when you know you had a good day. Getting the chance to learn things about other cultures, sharing your stories and meeting new people who have the sam passion about a sport. Not going to a club surounded by a bunch of drunk idiots, and having nasty STD infected girls trying to grind on you. Or if your a girl having guido meat head douchbags grinding there junk on your butthole trying to have sex with you on the dance floor. I mean if thats what you like then go for it lol. The way i see paradise now though is with the one person i love and will always love. Thats what it really is. Where ever she is in this world is where my paradise is. She will always be the one to make my days sunny and happy. With out her there is no paradise. Unitl she was in my life i thought thats what paradise was. You need to know that where ever that person you love is that makes you  who you are and smile everyday thats what real paradise lays. They are the ones who make you see the rest of the world in a diffrent light. You will never change my mind on what real paradise is. You can argue with me but where ever she may be is where my heart goes. I hope that she is never to far from my heart and i can make where ever she goes a good day. Where the sun is shining and she is smiling. I love you boo